Why does this happen

My heart gets so tired
From having to let go
I wonder why I ever tried
But I already know.

If you find joy in something
You want to bring it along
But eventually you have to let it go
And it can feel so wrong.

You keep trying to find that joy
So you have something to call yours
But along the way
You have to open and close many heavy doors.

It can weigh you down
Always letting go
When at the end of the day
You have nothing to show.

And still we keep trying
Digging for gold in the dirt
We keep searching
Even if all we find is hurt.

Sometimes you just have to let it go
Even if it’s something we love
Sometimes we just need to accept

Because for everything, there will be an end of.

Poem by - Emilia

This story that I'm saying,
it happened & its true..
she couldn't live without him
bet he knew it too.

He was her friend
and used to calm her fears
She knew him since childhood
for almost sixteen years.

All was fine with them
everything was going cool
one day he just stopped talking
and she ended up the fool.

All she wanted of him
was just to be her friend
but he doesn't care
how can her heart mend ?

She begged him everyday
everyday for a whole year,
"please talk to me my friend
i cant do without you here"

He turned a deaf ear to her
he ignored all her cries,
she was all so caught up
In a world full of lies.

She had no option
She really had no hope,
He was gone & wont be back
this fact she couldn't cope.

One day she sat & reminisced
of her childhood days of joy,
when they used to play together
a little girl & a little boy.

A single tear escaped her eye
followed by a million more
Her heart was so broken
her soul was hurting sore

She went then to the kitchen
and found a sharp knife,
She closed her eyes and thought of him
She wanted to end her life..

She fell then to the floor
now nothing will be the same,
her last word was a whisper
I think she spelt his name.

Next day her mother came
and found her doors locked,
when she broke into her room
she was totally shocked.

There lay her daughter
her body pale white,
floating in an ocean of blood
for she had died that night.

In life the girl had nothing to win
so she chose to lose,
her death was then announced
in every city news !

One day he heard of it,
her death reached his ear,
he'd just lost someone forever
who had held him so dear.

In years, for the first time
tears filled his eye,
"why couldn't she have lived?
why did she choose to die"?

He went to see her grave,
He stood where she was laid
He knew if only he was her friend
this situation would be saved.

He was the cause for her death
If he phoned her she wouldn't have died
now what would you call this ?
Murder or Suicide ?

This story is very much true
Its something i can foresee,
He still doesn't wanna talk

and the girl of course is me !

Is It Over - Someone on Orkut

"it is too late"? "Can a happiness be so speical that only one person can provide it"? "martyr"?
God! are you guys really that sad? we are all young, had a few expeience of life, and it would already be over? How could one live without the hope of being happy? Is there such a level of despair and desperation in which no matter who one could meet, what one could experience, there is nothing more to gain in life? I don't believe so I'd kill mmyself right away. As long as there is life there is hope, and hope makes one live. Two sayings in the same sentence for a cyclic meaning but I guess it defines life pretty well.

And about love? This special person that will make you the happiest? Why do we need to see things in such an egocentric way? Love is about two beings two souls, not about a piece of meat that will make you come every once in a while (some ppl seriously think that :S).
Love is about burning, about giving, all you can, all you've got, all you are, to that special someone, to this person you admire so much, without giving a damn whether or not she is going to give it back. The primary concern is "is she going to accept it?". Especially for guys, we will burn and burn and 99% of the time for women who don't care, or who do but then you realize they are not so special after all. But for this last 1% is not that worth burning? and living? Is not the magic and the beauty of just letting go, of giving all your love, of knowing you are speial for someone too, is not that last 1% more than enough to give all the hope one could need?
Of course sometimes s*** happens, a romance ends, or does not even start, and all that's left in your chest in a cold black hole full of ashes and regrets. Is that a reason for forgetting hope? It might take some time to clear the ashes but one day you meet randomly someone wonderful, and the next thing you feel is this flame once again. She might not even be interested but at least you are bruning once again, and thanks to this flame, to this person, you are feeling alive.

Why does it happen in love?

Log kehte hai ki ladkiyan zindagi hoti hai mout nahi,
Magar wo log ye kyon bhool jaate hai,
Ki dhoka bhi zindagi hi deti hai mout nahi..!!

Ek lamhe mein unhone hamari zindagi sawar di,
Ek lamhe mein unhone hamari zindagi ujaad di,
Kasoor unka nahi hamara hai,
Jo un 2 lamho mein humne apni zindagi guzar di..!!

Hasne ke baad kyo rulati hai duniya,
Jaane ke baad kyo bulati hai duniya,
Zindagi mein kya kuch kasar baki thi,
Jo marne ke baad bhi jalati hai duniya..!!

Ae ishq ye sab duniyawale bekar ki baatein karte hai,
Payal ke gamo ka ilm nahi,
Jhankar ki baatein karte hai,
Koi pooche unse gum ke maze,
Jo pyar ki baatein karte hai..!!

Paas aakar sabhi door chale jaate hai,
Hum akele the akele reh jaate hai,
Dil ka dard kise dikhaye,
Murham lagaane wale hi zakhm de jaate hai..!!

Wo hamare nahi to kya gum hai,
Hum to unhi ke liye hai ye kya kam hai,
Na gum kam hai na aansoo kam hai,
Dekhte hai rulanewalo mein kitna dum hai..!!!

Dil Ke Aarmaan..

Badi mehnat se meri duniya lutai hogi,

Meri hasti b mitai hogi,

La uske pairon me marham laga du,

Mere dil ko thokar marte unhe chaut to aayi hogi.

Bedard Kuch Dost Aise ho gaye hai hamare,

Jo hamara intezar bi nahi karte,

Kabhi humse bahot baat kiya karte the,

Ab to hame yad bhi nahi karte.

Ishq se mili hai jo tanhai humein,

Kaise uska dard bayaan karenge,

Ekse hi mohabbat itni karli,

Auro se mohabbat kya karenge.

Tera dukh hum seh nahi sakte,

Bhari mahfil me kuch keh nahi sakte,

Humare girte aansu pakad ke dekh,

Wo bhi kehte hai hum tere bin reh nahi sakte.

Har Ek Jazbat ko juban nahi milti,

Har ek aarju ko dua nahi milti,

Muskan banaye rakho to dunia hai sath,

Aansou ko tho anko mein bhi panah nahi milti.

Khul kay ezhar-e-mohabbat karna hamari aadat na thi,

Wo samajay ke humain unse mohabbat na thi,

Sari aarzu dil mein hi rah gaye,

Kabhi hum masroof the, to kabhi unhe fursat na thi.

Chote se dil ko milte jakham bahut hai,

Zindagi ko milte har pal gum bahut hai,

Mar dalti kab ki ye duniya humein,

Kambkhat aap jaise doston ki duaon mein dum bahut hai.

Humne Ansuo se poocha,

Kyu mera majak banate ho,

Sabke samne hi chale ate ho,

Ansu bole

"Mehfil me bhi aapko tanha pate hain",

To saath dene chale aate hai.

Bahut chaha magar tumko bhula na sake,

Khayalon me kisi aur ko la na sake,

Tumko dekh ke aansoo to poch liye,

Par kisi ke samne muskura na sake.

Kasur na unka tha na mera,

Hum dono hi rishton ki rasmein nibhte rahe,

Wo Dosti ka ehsaas jatate rahe,

Hum Mohabat ko dil me chupate rahe.

Jab pyar karna sikh liya, to pyar nibhana bhi sikh liya,

Jab aaye aap ki yad to palko ko jhukana bhi sikh liya,

Is dar se ki koi dekh na le ye aansu,

Har gam me muskurana bhi sikh liya.

Tonight

Changes and decisions,
I know I've had my share.
Even when I made them,
No one really cared.

Now I've reached the limit,
There will be no turning back.
I'm tired of the illusions,
I see them slowly crack.

You don't have to love me,
You don't have to smile.
Just lay down here beside me,
And stay with me awhile.

I tried to make some changes
To make it all work out.
And in the final moments,
Still I had my doubts.

Let the feelings die now,
Just throw the years away.
Pretend you never knew me,
But say tonight you'll stay.

You don't have to want me,
You don't have to care.
Tomorrow is a new day,
Tonight will take us there.

Love Is Gone

So you think you're a Romeo,
You're laying there in the afterglow,
You're feeling fine - but do you know
Where the feelings go?

Closed your eyes and you fell in love,
Had a taste, but it's not enough.
Lost your way - then you gave it up,
What were you thinking of?

Are you really what you think you are?
You seem to feel you're a shooting star,
But your light doesn't travel far,
No one knows your name.
You gain respect as you live and learn,
A shooting star has to crash and burn,

You take a trip but you never leave,
So many lies, who should you believe?
All your friends - how they can deceive,

All your life you have tried in vain,
Your light was shining through the falling rain.
Lost your heart - and you felt the pain,
Then you went insane.

Your future is so hard to see,
Past mistakes are now just history.
Ask yourself - "Will she remember me?"
Just wait and see.

Old lovers can never be good friends,
And when the fun and loving ends,
You'll wonder if your heart will mend,
And you'll find It's broke again.

So when it's over, let the feelings die.
It never does too much good to cry.

Don't waste your time by asking how or why,
You lost your way, so just say good-bye
And let the memories of those painful days
Just fade & Die.

You took a chance but you lost your heart,
Somehow the tears tore it all apart.
You're all alone when the crying starts,
You are crying inside and she departs.

It's over now and it's time to go.
No one cares if you make it home.
It's not easy - and you're so alone.
When the love is gone.The love is gone

If You Could See Me Now

Remember how I used to be,
When I was young and you were free?
Love was a toy I tossed around,
I had no chains to hold me down.
If you could see me now.

Remember how I laughed at fear,
And never cried a lonely tear?
I dreamed of love throughout the night,
Embraced with joy the morning light.
If you could see me now.

Now time has gone and passed me by,
I sit alone each night and cry.
Your memories haunt me as I think,
And thoughts grow dim with every drink.
If you could see me now.

Often I wonder where you are today,
And I suppose you wonder why I went away.
It never was because of you,
Just something that I had to do.
If you could see me now.

Today the sun shines bright outside,
But my soul is dark with no place to hide.
Your face I see in another drink,
And I cry and wonder what you'd think,
If you could see me now.