Loving the Loneliness

It's so weird. The thought itself is so weird.
It's 1st Jan 2007 morning 0000 hours & i'm writing a blog here.
I think this is the height of loneliness.
I think i should give this up now.
I'm tired of hiding myself down.
I don't know why i keep searching for someone.
Someone whom i can value as a true friend.
I had a thought of taking a resolution so i thought asking someone.
No replies.
You know some times people are so busy they forget about the people who care for them.
I did not get any replies.
& I made a resolution.
Some times you expect so much from your life that it hurts back like hell.
I talk to people everyday, But still in my heart the feeling of solitude is growing day by day.
I pray to god today from my heart that whatever my friends wish for it may come true.
I've lost my patience , my dignity, the feeling of self respect, some times i really expect too much the thing which is not made for my share.
I've made a resolution to make this feeling more strong.
i'd read some where that when i was born i was crying and people were enjoying,
but when i'll go people will cry and i'll just smile.
I don't want to make someone miss me.
I just pray god please cover my this resolution.
So when i die no one will know when i've left this world.
GOD BLESS EVERYONE near to me.
I know if some one would need a friend in life i am not the one who would make you smile.
But give me a call i'll cry with you.